I hate how you can just be doing your thing and in the course of a day a curveball lands everything in the toilet. I'm going to spare you the details but suffice to say it leaves me feeling like I'm going to throw up all day long. I kind of wish I would, just to get rid of the feeling and perhaps drop a few pounds while I'm at it. How dare adversity come my way! Of all the nerve! Because it's all about me, right?? Yeah, not so much.
I go through this thing in which I tend to get a sense of dread at times. It is like I feel something is about to change and not necessarily for the better. A little mantra goes through my head to the tune of, "Uh oh, things have been going pretty well it must be time for some trials." Sure enough, BAM! I even try to stop myself from thinking that way but it still happens, dang it.
For now, I have to rely on some faith here and remind myself I am not alone, there is a purpose and a plan.
Let it be known however, the whole faith process can be awfully difficult for someone like me!